past, present and future.

PAST;
talk shit, get hit.
that's what my favorite quote used to be. i used to cause problems, and start fights just because i could. i used to pray on the weak because it made me feel better about me. i made you cry? good. biggest bitch in school? awsome. your scared of me? even better. i didn't care what people thought or how i was looked out by others. i just wasn't happy with who i was. that's why i was so mean. i hurt people who didn't deserve it. i had so much built up anger and took it out on the wrong people.

TO THE PEOPLE IVE HURT;
im sorry. for anything ive said to hurt you. names ive called or fist ive thrown. i from the bottom of my heart am sorry.

WHAT CHANGED IT ALL;
i was in the bathroom at school, senior year, and a girl comes up to me
"hey, arnt you that girl who beat up that one girl"
wow. is that really what im known as.

PRESENT;
i care how im looked at by others. although i still don't allow people to walk all over me, or treat me like garbage. but i go about it in a better way. although i still talk shit when shit needs to be talked, but that's just me. im happy with who i am as a person. my life isn't where i want it to be, but god, im working on it. ive been through more in my 19 years then most do in a lifetime and im still on top. i now put others before me, and can now admit my wrongs and apologize when needed be. im happy with ashley now. yes, my life has currently hit rock bottom, but me as a person, im ok with that. i don't stress about tomorrow, because that's never promised, ill be ok, just for today.

FUTURE;
school, career, on my own two feet. that's where i wanna be.
but no one knows whats actually gonna happen. i have a plan, its just getting there that will be the struggle.